eurgh. monday blues... for some reason, th' weekend didn't seem complete. hmm.

got into my 'new job' today. its th' old one, but they've 'upgraded' me from SuperTemp!Grac to Receptionist/Telemarketer/SCC Supervisor/Data Entry Dude!Grac. Basically the same thing I've been doing the past six months except now I'm doing receptionist duties as well. I don't get paid enough. it's blah, but its a job. I don't much care what I do now, as long as it doesn't interfere with college. At least it seems 'permanant'- which means I don't have to worry about scrambling for another job to pay for my lifestyle expenses. contentment, complacency. ahh.

read ange's blog- she mentioned something about what she would do with her life and it got me thinking. i try not to think about the fact that i'm presently "doing nothing with my life". if i were to really sit down and evaluate, my main thought would be- "is this all that is?" Dissatisfaction sets in and I just get freaked for a split second. Optimistically, I'm in a 'phase' where my dreams are not yet realised. Maybe one day, after my studies, I'll be a Superstar and be Successful. But that's all just bullshit. Reality is this- if I don't get moving NOW- I'll still be where I am despite having several degrees.

I know all this with my head, I know it also with my heart. Why aren't I doing anything about it?